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July Highlights

This past Saturday I  had the pleasure of seeing other great bands performing live like Dove Slim, Camp Mullah and Muthoni the drummer queen who were all absolutely awesome.

Celebrated birthdays with my cousins and my close friends which was quite something.

July Downsides

This was not a very nice month, hence why I had to wrack my brains trying to think of what was good about it. Which sucks because July’s are usually the funnest and craziest months.

The biggest downside of this month was the passing of my grandad, I think the worst moment was seeing his casket being lowered into the ground, and how was my mother and her siblings were.  On the bright side, I have a new angel watching over me 🙂

I cried a lot this month, so many tears, I think I am all cried out now. I was always sad, and everything triggered tears. I am so glad that seems to be over now, and every day I pray for a smile.

I am still adjusting to certain situations in my life, ok just one so I was coming to terms with that loss gain. I am slowly getting over it, but I know eventually I will get there.

My vehicular phobia is kind of back, thanks to some idiotic driver under the influence. I was also an idiot entering a car subaru brrrr driven by someone that I do not know, and being encouraged to speed by his friends. Do not drink and drive is something that many of us take for granted, even though sooo many lives have been lost as a result. Anyway we came really close to over turning, and hitting a wall. We did a 360 degree turn on the road, and immediately the car stopped I got out of the car.  A lady who we had overtaken earlier stopped and gave us a ride.  I truly believe God sent us a guardian angel, and she was that angel.  Since that day,  am back to freaking out when someone speeds, or emergency brakes, and I am wary of being driven by people I do not know (and the way I am accustomed to cabbing smh).

July Discoveries

Do not drink and drive.

Speed kills.

Being selfish seems like the in thing, so I am joining that band wagon. No more putting other peoples needs before mine.

Adele is stalking me.

I may never be the same again..

What I look forward to in August

Joy, happiness, many smiles, random awesome things.

Change in lifestyle.

Adrenaline rush, I have a fun activity coming up this month and I am tres excited.

 

How was the month of July for you? What are you looking forward to this August?

Kisses and oreos,

 

Weekend Musings

Can you truly ever know someone completely and totally?
How long do people keep up impressions they have created?
I think we are never truly ourselves when we first meet people. Everyone wants to be liked, so we do things that we think will draw others to ourselves, and we hide the things we know would be disliked or frowned upon.
But these things will not remain hidden forever, they eventually reveal their ugly heads. So now it is upon these people to accept us for who we are, try (if they have the heart or time) to make us change, or leave if they decide they cannot put up with this new ugly side they have just discovered.
Since this almost always happens when humans interact, why not hold off on getting emotionally attached with others till you are sure you know as much as you can about someone?
(This is where you refer to the question I first asked)
Confusing ain’t it? 🙂
Sadly, I think it will not be easy for me to be truly myself with someone, but that is a sappy story I am not sure I want to share.. We will see.
Totally unrelated, I have been forced to change. I am usually very mindful of others, maybe even too much!
There are so many things I haven’t done simply because I am afraid it will rub them the wrong way, I do not wanna rub stuff in their faces, or I am afraid of being judged. I have no idea why the hell I am this way.
Anyhoosmu I realised being mindful of others is pointless because no one ever takes my feelings into consideration. Some people even do things deliberately targeted at me, because they know I will be affected.
Anyway it is now time for a new beginning. Screw everyone else, I will do me, forget them!
I had a very interesting weekend, it was fun, though it took a toll on my being in general. So many revelations, and trying to adjust to them will be a task.
Here is to a brand spanking new week. Praying it will be delightful and spectacular!

TGIFridays!!!

Thank God It’s Friday!!!

First up, my apologies for not being able to do this post last Friday, I was upcountry held up with things…

I am excited about

a dinner I am attending tonight *thumbs up*

Today I am Feeling

meh… best way to describe Fridays, they have become so hectic and busy.

he he he 😉

My Funky Friday Theme Song Is

I love all the glow sticks and laser lights!! It is psyching me up for Earth Dance. Speaking of earth dance, I was horrified to discover that my cousin is getting married that same day -_- Thank God Earth Dance is practically like 2 days long so no matter what time I leave the evening party, the party will not have stopped.

This Weekend I

just want to chill, did I mention I am working tomorrow 😦

I am really craving

nothing in particular… this is kind of a good thing me thinks.

I wish

I could take another break, or that every month had a public holiday on Friday.

I hope

they are okay and will have a clean bill of health soon.

Today’s Inspirational Quote Is

’20 years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the things you did.’

Have a Fabulous Friday!!!

 

Tralalalalalalala

I swear screw wordpress, this is the 3rd post I am writing again!! nkt! *logs into tumblr where they treat you right*

This post was meant to convey how happy go lucky I am and stuff but now I am frustrated so all my bubbliness has fizzled out!

In a nutshell, I feel free, I am at peace, no more sadness, no more sorrow, no more tears, no more worrying, no more fears.

My soul is no longer heavy, it is soaring like a gum wrapper in thewind.

I have nothing to dread, but the assurance that good things are in store for me in the future.

I have surrendered all my problems to God, and they do not trouble me anymore.

I feel light headed because I have nothing to worry about.

I believe I am in a much better place,

I am basking in the sunshine after the rain 🙂

wooohooo

When what you have been dreading, happens..

I went for the bbq that I was looking forward to on Friday, and it rocked. The house was more beautiful than I imagined.

Though I did feel sort of socially awkward, socialising was a task though the men there made it easier. I doubt I spoke to any chic that I did not know.

It also felt weird, being there by myself, the lone ranger, when so many people had coupled up. I am still adjusting to not being part of a pair anymore, and third wheeling is just the pits, totally sucks!

I indulged in sangria and some sweet white wine, and by the time I got home, I was sorta tipsy, and my head was spinning.

Little did I know that at that time my grandfather was lying in his hospital bed dying -_-

My mother woke me up on Sunday morning, and I just knew that he had left us.

I never expected him to die so soon, I thought that he would at least have a few weeks to go. But he was really suffering, and I am sure he was happy to relinquish everything and head towards the light.

I think after we bury him I can finally be in peace, with nothing bad to look forward to, and actually have the heart to hope for something good to happen.

I feel like my luck will change, and that awesome things are in store for me.

For now I just pray for courage and strength for my family as we lay to rest one of the pillars of our family, and pray that his memory and spirit will keep us together.

 

 

TGIFridays!!!

Thank God It’s Friday!!!

I am really praying this will be a good day, the last couple of Fridays have not been all that..

I am excited about

all these birthday celebrations this weekend #WIN.

Today I Am Feeling

photo

apprehensive, dunno what today or life has in store for me.

My Funky Friday Theme Song Is

Lounging ~ LL Cool J feat Total.

This Weekend I

am looking forward to a bbq I am going for tomorrow at a place which I have been dying to go to.

I am really craving

peace of mind.

I wish

someone would find a cure for cancer, that everything I see would not be a reminder of things that I have lost.

I hope

that I eventually accept what life has thrown at me, and be armed to face the next challenges.

Today’s Inspirational Quote Is

‘Winning isn’t everything – It’s the only thing.’

Have a Fantastic Friday!!!

God grant me the serenity…

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
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This prayer has been in my head for a while now, and echo’s what I need from God.
There are somethings which I am having difficulties accepting.
My grandfather is dying… This is still a bitter pill to swallow.
I ask the Lord to give him strength, knowing deep down inside, that he is too weak to muster the strength needed to fight this.
I never pray for a miracle, I have not witnessed enough of them to believe in their possibilities.
Prayer seems very futile right now since I know what I truly want may not be feasible.
Now I simply pray for him not to suffer or feel any pain.
I now pray to accept what seems to be God’s will.
There is nothing I can do to change this.
For the things that I can change in my life,
I cannot be the only one with the power to change things,
They also have that ability,
Yet they choose not to take any action,
Or make any effort.
Seeing that I am the only factor of change,
That alone makes this something that I cannot change.
So I am letting go and letting God.
I just pray this decision is final..