Monday Morning Jibber Jabber

It’s early Monday morning, the clouds are overhead, masking the sun which had just been shining brightly like half an hour ago.

The sun may have lost the battle, but I am hoping it will win the war later on today.

I dread Monday’s but when the day itself materializes, sometimes it is not as bad as we expect it to be. (I am hoping I am not jinxing myself).

The fact that they play good music on Monday morning really helps. Music is the 2nd thing after people that has power over my mood. Good music excites me, makes me happy, reminds me of happy moments, in fact I am listening to the radio as we speak.

It is definitely taking my mind off my sinuses which are really acting up 😦

The other cool thing about Monday is reminiscing about the weekend. I had yet another fantastic weekend, a trend that I am really digging. Spent it with people I had not seen in a while and we definitely had a ball.

This Sunday I saw enough women in harem pants. The first time I saw those pants, I could not believe MC Hammer was the inspiration behind a fashion trend. I thought they were ridiculous!! But nowadays I see so many women actually looking good in them. I do not know if I like them enough to purchase a pair for myself, right now I am okay admiring them on others.

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December is a day away and I am very excited because it is after all the season to be jolly 🙂

The one thing I will never get used to about adulthood is working in December. It is so not fair. I am already in a holiday state of mind!! The worst part about it is that the industry that I work in never closes for the holidays 😦

I decided this year I will go for mass on Christmas eve, I really hope I will be able to do it though, I am already trying to think of who I can drag with me to church.

I have no clue what we are doing for Christmas, but one thing is for sure, we will be in Nairobi.

Is it just me, or are the summer bunnies taking forever to get here?! This year I know better than to get involved with summer bunnies, it is a waste of time, ok not of course when they are around, but it sucks when they go back to the countries they came from.

I really really really want a blackberry. I blame twitter. Why do they have to display what applications people are using? How does that information help me except from making me want things I can’t have?? I want to twit from Uber Twitter and have BBM, that is all. Santa if you’re reading this please get me a blackberry? Any will do, storm, torch whatevs.

 

Blackberry Bold

 

 

TGIFridays!!

Thank God It’s Friday!!!!!

Okay the weather may be pretty dreary and gloomy, but hey, the weekend is practically here so smile 🙂

I am excited about

catching up with people I have not seen in a very long time this weekend.

Today I am Feeling

peaceful and tranquil, but I am afraid all that will change after 5pm, for the last two days, it seems like that is when my hour of darkness begins. Let’s all hope that will not be the case today.

My Funky Friday Theme Song Is

Nicole Slade

Forbidden Dance by Les Beats produced by my good friend Miss Nicole Slade, an upcoming Kenyan producer and artist based at the UK. Click here to listen to the track on Reverbnation.

This weekend I

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am looking forward to rolling around in the grass in flowing skirts while listening to some great music and kicking it with cool people 🙂

I am really craving

a good book that I can carry around with me in my bag so that I can whip it out when I am bored or when I need to pass time or wad off strangers.

I wish

I could be on holiday for the entire month of December.

I hope

it does not rain tomorrow, I have a wedding to go for in the outdoors and my outfit is not rain friendly.

Today’s Inspirational Quote Is

‘He who has a ‘why’ to live for, can bear almost any how.’

Have A Fabulous Friday!!!

The Zahir

I had heard about The Zahir from Coloured In Sepia, but I thought it was a poem so I never bothered with it because I am not a poetry fan unless it is written to me 🙂 She gave it to me when she was flying out, and I began reading it.

The Zahir by Paulo Coelho

The Zahir by Paulo Coelho is a book about a renowned author whose wife suddenly disappears mysteriously without a trace. She was last spotted with a young Khazakstanian who goes by the name of Mikhail. The author embarks on a journey to figure out what made his wife leave, what role he played in making her leave, where he is going to find her, and basically he examines his relationship with his wife in his quest to figure out what went wrong.

Mikhail helps him discover the divine energy of love and how to relinquish his personal history in order to come one step closer to the woman he loves.

The Zahir is something which once touched or seen, can never be forgotten, and which so gradually fills our thoughts that we are driven to madness. The author’s wife Esther became his zahir.

What I liked about the book was that it was not only entertaining, but enlightening as well. Here are a few excerpts that really stood out for me from the book.

‘Freedom is not the absence of commitments, but the ability to choose—and commit myself to—what is best for me.’

‘Our true friends are those who are with us when the good things happen. They cheer us on and are pleased by our triumphs. False friends only appear at difficult times, with their sad, supportive faces, when, in fact, our suffering is serving to console them for their miserable lives.’

‘The energy of hatred won’t get you anywhere; but the energy of forgiveness, which reveals itself through love, will transform your life in a positive way.’

‘That is the Mongolian creation myth: out of two different natures love is born. In contradiction, love grows in strength. In confrontation and transformation, love is preserved.’

‘The world will become real when man learns how to love; until then we will live in the belief that we know what love is, but we will always lack the courage to confront it as it truly is.’

‘Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused.’

‘We can harness the energy of the winds, the seas, the sun. But the day man learns to harness the energy of love, that will be as important as the discovery of fire.’

‘If someone is capable of loving his partner without restrictions, unconditionally, then he is manifesting the love of God. If the love of God becomes manifest, he will love his neighbor. If he loves his neighbor, he will love himself. If he loves himself, then everything returns to its proper place. History changes.’

‘God does not play dice with the universe; everything is interconnected and has a meaning.’

‘When we are on the right path, we follow the signs, and if we occasionally stumble, the Divine comes to our aid, preventing us from making a mistake.’

‘If just one person changes, the whole human race is changed.’

‘People are sad because they are the prisoners of their personal history.’

‘Everyone believes that the main aim in life is to follow a plan. They never ask if that plan is theirs or if it was created by another person. They accumulate experiences, memories, things, other people’s ideas, and it is more than they can possibly cope with. And that is why they forget their dreams.’

‘In order for the true energy of love to penetrate your soul, your soul must be as if you had just been born. Why are people unhappy? Because they want to imprison that energy, which is impossible. Forgetting your personal history means leaving that channel clear, allowing that energy to manifest itself each day in whatever way it chooses, allowing yourself to be guided by it.’

‘That is why it is so important to let certain things go. To release them. To cut loose. People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Don’t expect to get anything back, don’t expect recognition for your efforts, don’t expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. Complete the circle. Not out of pride, inability, or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life. Close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust. Stop being who you were and become who you are.’

What I really loved about this book was that it made me take a look at myself, gave me a great deal of things to think about as compared to most of the other books I read which do nothing but fuel my fantasies and entertain me momentarily.

Thanks to The Zahir, I am definitely going to search for more Paulo Coelho books.

Confessions of a resistant single girl

I am sure you are all very aware of my current obsession with Rihanna. I love her latest songs, the fiery red hair, her tattoos, her nails, her style and her dance moves. I blame her for my current state, by instilling false expectations in my head with her music.

Oh na na na

It’s time to lay the cards out to not only myself, but to the world. This blog is after all known as revealed, which is quite the oxy moron since I speak in code and do not actually reveal much (that’s a post for another day). I AM A COWARD There, I said it!! Even mentioning those words made my heart beat faster. Now let us drill down what exactly it is I am afraid off. So I will just blurt it out now, I have self esteem issues. I am human, I am imperfect and I worry about whether I will find someone who will overlook my imperfections. I am afraid of getting hurt, of being vulnerable, of trusting someone with my whole being and having them betray that trust. I am scared of love, does it really exist?? Would i be able to recognize and acknowledge it?! I thought I was in love once, but that just turned out to be a sham! I am scared because I do not know how far I want to go. I do not want to change who I am because of a man. I would like to believe that I am one of those women who would not change, but let us just be realistic, people change to conform to what they think the person they desire would want them to be. Sadly I give a damn about what people think so I always take that into consideration whenever I meet someone. What will my family and friends think etc.. I also hate and avoid seeming desperate, pride is a very bad thing, but I think it is a great guard though it may make me loose out on some opportunities. Chick about town (who totally rocks, please click the link to check out her blog) told me about this great book called the surrendered single. I haven’t managed to buy a copy yet, but there is a free chapter here, and reading it was very enlightening. According to the book, I try to control so many aspects of my life like who approaches me, how the dates go, who my prospects are, rather than relinquishing that control and surrendering to whatever may happen. Denying that I would like to be in a relationship is apparently me inadvertently trying to control things, and is a depiction of my vulnerability. I try to protect myself with control. This made a lot of sense.

Vulnerability makes us approachable and attractive because it’s a gift to the person we’re with. It’s an unspoken compliment that says, “I trust you to be gentle when I put down my armor. I feel safe with you.” To appear perfect is to keep your defenses up, which means others can’t see and love the real you.

I do not like to appear perfect, but I do like to portray the fact that I am independent, I can do well on my own and that I do not need anyone. Clearly it is a defense mechanism that works against me. Sometimes I feel myself doing it, but I am usually too late to stop myself.

Strength is attractive, but hard-nosed independence sends a “get away” message to those who want to approach you.

A Surrendered Single is:

  • Open where she was guarded
  • Optimistic where she was cynical
  • Feminine where she was tough
  • Gracious where once fended for herself
  • Respectful where she used to feel superior

I would really like to give this whole surrendering thing a try. Apparently it will enable me to make well informed decisions based on my desires. So everybody knows I am like the anti marriage poster child. The whole getting married at 38 thing has always been a defense mechanism. Do I really want to share the rest of my life with one person?? It’s better if I jump the broom later after I have lived my life and stuff. The lifelong commitment part also scares me. I believe I am capable of being fully committed, I am just not sure some men are. So the book advocates for women to surrender to the desire to be married as it will lead to changes both on the inside and the outside. The thought of surrendering to that desire is terrifying to be honest. But let me give myself time to wrap my head around the idea. This past weekend I sated a certain craving I had on Friday 😉 with someone I have known for very many years. The whole thing was confusing yet exciting at the same time. I have no idea what happens next now that the friend zone line was crossed. I am still trying to figure out what it is that I want. Hopefully this whole surrendering theory will help me out with this whole situation.

TGIFridays!!!

Thank God It’s Friday!!!!

If it was not for Kawiria’s TGIFriday post I probably would have taken a while to do this post. I am being distracted by a couple of things today. But thanks to her sending her link here, the post must be done 🙂

I am excited about

my friends birthday party tonight 🙂

Today I am Feeling

happy-go-lucky with a dash of a headache that just won’t quit!

My Funky Friday Theme Song Is

Feel ~ Robbie Williams

I love this song to bits!

This weekend I

am hoping to have fun and still spare some time to rest.

I am really craving

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I wish

things work out and fairness prevails.

I hope

everything goes smoothly today, and we have fun, and she has her memory tomorrow so that I can laugh at her. I also hope things will not be weird with him ..

Today’s Inspirational Quote Is

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Have a Fantastic Friday Friends!!!!!

TGIFridays!!!

Thank God It’s Friday!!
For once i’m sad Friday arrived so soon 😦
Today i’m Feeling
sleepy, i’m still in bed 🙂 so i am quite ecstatic about that!
I am excited about
the road trip with my friends 🙂
This weekend I
just wanna try and chill out, if my friends will let me, and enjoy the fresh country air.
My Funky Friday Theme Song Is
Party Hard, i dunno who sang it, but its just extremely awesome!
I am really craving
chicken or any kinda nyummy meat!
I wish
I had more days off.
I hope
we have a safe journey.
Today’s Inspirational Quote Is
‘Overcoming fear is strength.’
Have a Fantastic Friday!!

Tuesday Thoughts

  • Not giving in to peer pressure is not as easy as it used to be.
  • I catch feelings so easily sheesh, I hate being a girl bleh. Everything is so serious.
  • Women are the cause of most of men’s problems, I kinda pity them smh
  • I am such a wimp, I wish I could be braver.
  • No matter how hard you fight it, you will end up giving into temptation.
  • These mind games may finally infiltrate my mind 0_o
  • Adulthood sucks lemons, enjoy childhood, and embrace your youth for as long as possible.
  • Black ice and apple sour, try it you will love it!
  • Some people do not get me at all, which is a shame because they are supposed to.
  • Dance music is the future!!
  • Planning is so boring, randomness is the business.
  • I may never get over the one’s that got away till I have them and get them out of my system, or find someone who will distract me till they have no space in my mind.
  • I had those how I met your mother glass shuttering moments, but somehow my mind is trying to ignore that revelation.
  • Denzel Washington can’t gerrit, he never has and he never will!
  • Some MP’s have very appealing sons 😉 too bad they are all younger than me puh!
  • I hate depending on people, because they always seem to let you down.
  • Men need to realise, the reason why women meddle is because they are looking out for their friends. Their allegiance is to their girls, not you, so do not get it twisted!
  • There is some truth to every rumour. The evidence is there so just own it and quit denying!
  • Why was Melrose Place cancelled?? It has such a gorgeous cast and great soundtrack.
  • I would really like a rainbow coloured popsicle.
  • It hit me on Sunday that I never considered him to be my first love, in fact the memory of the whole experience has almost been completely erased. I still wonder what I was thinking…
  • Do not befriend couples on social networks, they will fill your timeline/newsfeed with couply nonsense.
  • Pride comes before a fall.
  • My hair needs Jesus and a hair stylist.
  • To your male friends, you will always come second to the women they are pursuing.
  • Even if he was not out of bounds, he does not stand a chance. I like worthy opponents, not people who just concede to shut me up.