As we speak one of my best friends is up in the air flying thousands of miles away from here. It still feels kinda surreal, like it has not happened, but I know she’s gone because I feel so sad and alone.
Yes I may have tonnes of friends, but that doesn’t matter, I am sure I am just but an option for some of them.
The future looks bleak for the next 1 year, my randomness reduced a lot in February when the first best friend left, now it will reduce a whole lot, and after my other close friend leaves, it will be reduced to zero 😦
I hate goodbyes and I hate change, and clearly I have a lot of adjusting to do, and I am really not looking forward to it.
I am now refraining from watching any sad movies, or listening to slow mushy music because I will cry bucket loads!
Today is gonna be a really long yucky day………..